Saturday, April 30, 2016

An Old Photograph of a Quiet Street in Paxtang Found in a Book

A photograph laid in a book with the feeling of a hand
I have forgotten      the reason         pages 188-89
this book             instead of that book

no cars      no people     October afternoon

road that passes a church centuries old
squat      rough stones    quietly proud
whose angry congregants    massacred

you can just glimpse the proud historic sign

the last of the Susquehannocks
fourteen elderly       under State protection
what remained of the twenty-two

who were old people     making brooms
locked in a workhouse    pitifully
    kept in Conestoga town

They called it reprisal    for something
that happened elsewhere     to murder
old mothers fathers     no children left

the Paxton Boys

a quiet street in  Paxtang

you sense this street
is exactly what they wanted

Peshtank

who cares   who will feel you    later
No words         on the back
only processing notes       a machine

spoke in blue ink      in diagonals

no possession

no one there         the trees in full throes of color

the unseen church

no possessions

the way the trees seem to own themselves

the one redeeming note of darkness
                                                            here




The House

I am a slave to this house
It keeps me slave to its rhythms
But in a way it saves me
If it senses I have thoughts of straying
It becomes a performance artist of need
A pipe breaks in the basement
A toilet becomes a defector
Tend to me    soothe me    the house says
So I go from floor to floor
Caress it where I wash it with sponges
If I get a hot bath it wants one too
I seem to kowtow when I clean its steps
Going floor to floor in half-darkness
As the cats that wander on sentry duty
From floor to floor with that second sight
Rooms feel needy as soon as I leave them
You can never trust me to myself  it says
So I have stopped taking vacations
I might do myself in while you are away
The house whispers at me through its eyeholes
When I look up at it from the street
If I die, you die the house promises
Like a lover who is also a prison
And I believe it    and so I love it well

The Room

The room is dark so comforting
So the room is full of meaning
Another one is gone now
The room grows darker now
So full of more meaning
How filling is it does it fill you up
The meaning of the darkness
And the meaning of the room
They are separate things
This is what keeps you busy
Separating them
Don't turn on the light
It would be so painful to me now
It's like the darkness is a second skin
And the light would burn like hell



Friday, April 29, 2016

Hand

I like to think of the ways night is like a hand
No, it is a hand
There are secrets and secretions
Just as there are with a hand
You will argue with me like an oven now
But if you look at your hand
I guarantee you it is secreting
Right this instant
You are reading




Hand

The room is dark
The room is full of flowing
I mean it is full of flowering things
There is a repetition of space in space
It is like the water inside water
It is what pools in a palm
When you look at it
To see what you cannot see



Fear of a Dark Room

When the room is dark
There is more room in it
When the room is dark
I find more space more kindness
For the leaves falling the glasses falling
The lilacs breathing across the room
There is more grammar no less
I don't have to decide in the darkness
The artificial legs are friendly
Think night crabs crossing wide highways in Japan
There must be massive destruction
Coming up out of the sea
When the room is dark
You don't know how many bodies
Share the space with you
This sculptural space of flowers
They enfold darkness to become
Or the crabs climbing these flowing trees
In the darkness of the room of night
The ones the Japanese cars didn't run over
The night is only a room
Attached to a much bigger room
They are going from room to room
They go from dark to dark
That is what the crabs do
The room is growing larger
But it cannot let you know this



Tuesday, April 26, 2016

Paean

Sometimes it is a single hair
I don't know what it is
Sometimes it is a simple dwelling
A bit of forest beset in an urban area
The shape that mathematics takes
A hill of numbers
Or an uphill climb like a forgiveness

I know certainly it is a foreignness
It's the place where the lava grips the rock
It is like a hand closing over another hand
It is the robbing at dawn
The trees won't kowtow for it in the night
They have their ancient dignity

As you have yours lurking the streetlights just as they go out

Before or after the stars



Eyebrows

"Eyebrows lie above the eyes."

                          --koan

The Blizzard Exhibit

The blizzard exhibit was very popular, one of the favorites of all the museum-goers, and the absolute favorite of children who visited the Time Museum.

People of all ages loved to gather around these moments culled out of distant time, which were displayed under what appeared to be a glass bubble. You could watch these terrible moments from January 12th, 1888 unfold before your eyes again and again. All you had to do was push one of the large buttons located on the walls of the museum. One button was on the ground floor where the "time bubble" was located and the other plate-sized, red button was easy to find on the wall of the gallery walkway above. Guests could stand up there and get a bird's-eye view of the little one room schoolhouse surrounded and beset by the blizzard as it raged in a renewed "live-time". The visibility inside the time bubble itself was the same as the visibility during the blizzard of 1888 itself; it was a pitiless, white void. Museum visitors could watch it with the naked eye and try to see what they could see, but most used the special goggles provided by the museum, which would allow them a thermal view of the young schoolteacher and her beset charges.

Many times a day, Minnie Freeman was forced to face her imminent extinction and the deaths of all thirteen of her little charges.  Each time, the resourceful woman marshaled her wits and tied her young pupils together with a rope and led the thirteen boys and girls into the screaming white void of the storm which had killed so many on that day in 1888. This was not a reenactment. These were the actual moments of time which had occurred, spliced together using the latest technology. Minnie and her thirteen young charges were indeed alive and again living those moments of terror  each time a child or adult pushed either of those buttons on the museum walls. And push they did. It was considered a perfectly innocent form of entertainment by virtually all. It is true there was a vociferous minority which protested violently against exhibitions such as this one. But these temporal ethicists were mocked if not openly vilified.

It was just after noon and the exhibit was in full swing. Minnie had tethered the children together with the rope and they were wandering blindly in the blizzard, their hands held in front of them like sleepwalkers, hoping to touch something, anything, some structure which might mean safety, warmth, survival. Most of the children were crying. Their fingers, their hands hurt terribly already, though they had been in the blizzard only a few minutes. These were children of the Plains, so they knew what it would mean if they passed a certain point of frostbite. It would mean the loss of fingers, hands, possibly an arm itself. Their feet hurt too. They could lose their legs, they knew. They cried, but it hurt to cry because the tears burned their cheeks. They could hear their teacher praying aloud and some of them tried to follow the words of her prayer with her. Some were too young to know the words but tried anyway.

The people in the museum smiled and took holographic photos of the spectacle before and below them. Some had even seen this display before. It never got old. The drama was so vivid.

The saddest part of the exhibit is that Minnie never reached safety with the children. The exhibit, the time splice, showed only the few moments when she emerged from the schoolhouse to enter the blizzard with the children. She wandered to the edge of the time splice and then the vignette ended, right when the school teacher reached the curved face of the encapsulated bubble, which she could not sense in any way. Some museum-goers had complained over the years that the scene should be presented in its entirety. They argued that we should see the whole arc of the narrative, the full event. But it was a matter of expense. And it was very labor-intensive to sample a bit of the time stream and reproduce it in a sustainable manner. It had taken nearly seventy-five years just to code well enough to reproduce this series of moments.

It was a summer's day and museum-goers had just pushed the button to activate the blizzard display when something unusual happened. Nobody could know that Minnie Freeman and some of the children had been experiencing a profound sense of deja vu in their multiple shared afterlives. One of the children had even predicted some of the details of their march through the snow. For example, she "remembered" that her classmate Ada would lose her shoe and panic. She asked her teacher how she could remember something which had not yet happened. Minnie "remembered" this too.

This was not something which was supposed to be possible. The passivity of these actors in the time splice was taken for granted. The "time bubble" under which the time-splice played out was impermeable. It was one-way temporal glass. Nothing could get through to the fourteen human beings below who repeatedly lived out moments that were certainly among the worst moments in their lives, if not, as was probable, the absolute worst moments they had ever endured. But these players on a wintry stage were not supposed to ever realize the moments they were living were no longer singular moments, but were instead now "time samples." These players were sealed within their play. There was no "fourth wall" to break. So we had been told. It was philosophically argued that there was no ethical distinction to be made for the proliferation of pain in "hosting" this event from the past, in replaying it constantly. It was the same, singular event. The "players" did not know they were now trapped in these moments. It felt like the first time to them every time. It was innocent voyeurism. So it was explained and so it was believed.

It took many thousands of "playings" of this tragic blizzard scene before randomness had its say. But just as every recording ever made will eventually develop a glitch which compromises the fidelity of the recorded sounds, this scene too finally degenerated into the native chaos of which our time-stream is actually composed.

It was a very warm day in August and museum visitors were vicariously enjoying the cold contained in the time bubble when Minnie did something no one had foreseen. She led the schoolchildren the wrong direction. She changed time. Only one of the museum-goers assembled to watch realized what had happened. This was a middle-aged woman who had seen the exhibit several years before when she brought her young granddaughter to the Time Museum to see Minnie's resourceful heroism play out under the time bubble. Today she had come alone. She instantly realized the magnitude of this error.

"She's going the wrong way," she muttered at first. And then the hairs stood up on her neck. And she shouted it. "She's going the wrong way! That's not the direction she's supposed to go!" Because she was up on the gallery walkway, her voice carried very well.

The other museum visitors looked at her queerly. Was she ill? Was this some sort of prank? How could the school teacher go the wrong way? This moment of time was finished. It had been finished for centuries.

Then they saw the schoolteacher within the time bubble fall in the snow. The children, tied by the rope to her body, fell with her. They could see through their goggles that the snow was covering their bodies. Minnie got up and stumbled a bit more. Then fell again. This went on for a few moments. Then she apparently lost consciousness. The children struggled to free themselves of the rope but to no avail. They were all perishing. The two hundred and thirteen children who perished in the blizzard of January 12th, 1888 became two hundred and twenty-six children.

The code which set the parameters of the time splice for the blizzard were broken. The scene had been coded to end when the teacher's hand reached a certain point in the time-space frame which had been sampled. Because this did not happen, the boundaries of the time splice dissolved. The blizzard broke free of the time bubble.

The blizzard of January 12th, 1888 broke free into the space of the Time Museum on that August afternoon and instantly all visitors on all floors of the museum were snow-blind, freezing to death in their summer clothing. They were no different than Minnie Freeman. But there was no rope. There was no safe place to reach.

Security managed to push an alert button before freezing to death, but it was too late. The museum sealed itself at the moment that alert was sounded, condemning all museum patrons inside to certain death. It is true the museum was designed without windows as a security precaution and that the walls had been specially fortified, but the blizzard spread and an entire sky from another century was pouring into a single building. Winds soon built up such pressure that even these fortified walls began to buckle. All the tortured skies of  the Nebraska of January 12th, 1888 were now pouring into one building the size of a city block. The walls of the museum were no match for this monstrous storm and they soon gave. The blizzard met the August streets of another century, where it froze many thousands more to death before finding its way heavenward where finally the hot skies could appease this storm with their warmth.

It took three days for time technicians coding furiously, actually an international effort, to close off the opening to the 1888 blizzard. This caused a temporary removal of all time splice displays, much to the chagrin of the public and the delight of the temporal ethicists. One initially bright note in this lugubrious story is that a family of three who had perished in the blizzard of '88 wandered out of the broken time splice into the streets of the new century and managed to survive. Many argued for the return of these unwanted "time immigrants" to 1888. Their memories, gentler hearts argued, could be swabbed clean. Needless to say, that was not something which could be allowed. The government voted to euthanize them the next year.


Saturday, April 23, 2016

I Don't Know

I don't know about you, but I am composed mostly of bubbles.

Under

Whatever happens it wasn't night
That made it crawl that way
Under the bottom of another soul
When the night's wet it shines
Its blackness shines
It is a carapace crushed to black glitteriness
The streets after a storm
You walk to the harbor alone
You stand at the little wall built for anyone
The boats hide in a sort of corridor
You feel you could be alright
Under the bottom of a boat
A shadowy guest following them
Their pleasure jaunts


Butter

Even the shape of a lemon feels like a nerve scorch
It's a pigment and a giddiness
Something happens in an autumn
I wake and my mind is a palette knife
I mean a soft butter knife
Shining underwater
Someone who bathes with a knife
Depict her with the blade
Held under the water as sensuousness
Catching sunlight under there
And between her teeth



"demotional"

Sill

Here I have put some breath in a cup
It is the white of morning
A deceptive moistness to our air
The way the charcoal drawing
In the last room to receive the light
Appears somehow moist
You are moist
Your breath fits in this paper cup
And it is not even real








A Road

This road I think it has always been here
It is colorless and shudders
It has only one subject
"You are a road and I am your subject"
I tell it when I walk it
I don't know if it will survive me
I have seen some roads die
There are dense trees on either side
I mean the trees are densely set
I don't know anything about their intelligence
The moon uses it as a thoroughfare
And the deer have their affairs there
Right in the middle of the road
They do it on the painted human stripe
Imagine      a deer orgy of not caring
The forest embraces the little it knows of this road
I was never even taught its name
Maybe this is why I love it so much
When I walk down this road
I walk right down the middle
Because it's a country road without houses
It's no less lovely when it is not there
I mean when I am not there to tell it things
The way I have spent my life talking to roads
And not people



Could

We could wear masks
to greet the dawn
the way we do
when evening comes
around the brick corners
the brick spires
isn't it exciting
that we have these shadows
attached to our spines
so we are like sundials
reliable all day
and when night comes
we no longer have to serve
to stand and serve
we no longer are slaves
to the mottoes someone engraved there
or even our names


A New Law of Gravity

There is this other form of gravity.
Let's call it "sympathetic gravity."
The drowned bug, so tiny, in the bathwater with you,
keeps drifting towards your leg,
anywhere on your skin
its afterlife can make contact with your life.
It creeps you out.
You scoop it up in a cup, a lonely pink cup,
and the bug corpse floats in there.
But it drifts towards the pink wall
of the plastic rinse cup
the way we put our hands out to touch
pink marble in a cemetery.
There is a pink limit that is either alive
or is felt as alive,
which is nearly the same thing.




Friday, April 22, 2016

The Photograph of the Pigeons

When I look at the photograph of the pigeons
realized by Sean Soong, what do I think?
I think that I feel things,
and then I feel the things I think.
Did you notice I placed a soapy window
just now between my thoughts
and feelings by saying, "I think that I feel...?
It is a soapy window such as you see
on buildings where something has gone out of business
and doesn't want you to look inside.
That always feels like contemporary art,
that soap. It's usually very Twombly.
There are five pigeons in Soong's blue composition.
The pigeon quintet stands and faces different directions
like art critics or moody artists in a music group
on the cover of one of their albums.
The pigeons feel stoic.
The pigeons feel intransigent.
You feel the great existential schism
even between pigeons.
It makes you feel less lonely.
It ennobles by revealing you to be a shithead
for having dwelled overmuch on your aloneness,
your schism with the world.
The Mighty World.
It does not exist.
The birds feel like compass dials or hands of a clock
which have defected.
There are seven pigeons shadows,
because two pigeons were flying above
at the moment the photograph happened.
Unless those are pigeon impersonators.
How will we ever know?
The photo was shot with a panoramic camera,
so the photograph is a long rectangle,
at geometric odds with most of photography.
We feel the pull of the underdog.
The pigeons are totally seen as the observer wills.
How is your will today?
There is a dark puddle in the composition,
there on the blue street, just to fuck
with your head. To make you think
it might be a pigeon shadow too.
Or it could be a pigeon that melted into darkness
as so many of them are doing
right at this moment.
Pigeons all become nothing.
Nobody will ever believe their differences.
And you don't really care.
You are too much of a will to care.
You are too sad to be sad about.




As For

As for sitting at the table, it was before daybreak.
It was a person being a darkness within a darkness,
welcoming that.
It was not even a person being a silhouette,
because to be a silhouette
someone would have to be behind, observing.
The table was bored.
The person was ecstatic.
The cup from which the person was drinking
might as well have been a Ouija planchette.
It was importing worlds constantly.
There was a bias. The person might have felt
a bit like a nun in the darkness.
It was a good feeling.
No, it was a great feeling.
Nuns like darkness.



Some People

Some people live in beds without windows.

Morning Poem

There is a fog outside this window.
It is a contemporary fog.



Darling

There is a line in the window.
There is a line in the window in the moisture
through which you can see through.
Through which you can see through other things.
There is a line.
There is a line in your head.
Or you think of it as a line.
The sentence is visualized as a line.
There is a line in the fog outside.
There is a line in the fog outside the window
with the line in the moisture
through which you are looking.
You don't feel like a camera obscura
but maybe you are.
You feel more like a moviehouse
cushioned in fog.
This is why I find you darling.


Thursday, April 21, 2016

The Thing

The thing about Rick is that he didn't save the girl in the Popeyes. Sometimes he would say "woman." Was she a girl or a woman? Who knows, does it matter? She was seventeen. Or nineteen. I forget. It was an odd number. I remember that. Strange the way facts have jagged edges like that. You can almost just seize them sometimes.

He was standing in line trying to decide whether to order the three piece chicken meal or the five piece when the guy came through the front door with the gun already out. He was screaming at her, right at her,the girl behind the counter, as he flew across the room of multifarious screams, the people running towards and out the side doors, even the front door the young man had just come through, anywhere they could escape. Dumber or more desperate, unthinking people ran into the bathrooms.

The way Rick told the story he didn't run. He just froze there at his place in line which was no longer a place in line since everyone had gone in an instant. It was as if the man with the pistol, the furious man, couldn't see Rick. He only had murderous eyes for the girl or woman behind the counter. She just froze too. Standing there in the horrible uniform that was supposed to just be a temporary indignity. Now it was how she would disappear.  Rick said there was a resigned look in her eyes. He saw that even in those few moments. Why didn't she run? Scream? Do something? He often asked us this. He knew there was no answer. Maybe she was preparing to reason with him. Maybe she just knew.

It was the usual story of love (or something someone considered love) gone wrong. The moment for Rick to have acted was a very brief moment indeed. The bullet in the face followed immediately after the few short sentences, the reading of the charges against her monstrous heart. And she was destroyed, shattered, gone from view down behind the stainless counter. Though Rick saw the parts of her on the Popeyes menu board he had just been studying. Brain tissue slid down over the bright images of fried chicken, obeying the dictates of gravity, which always has a simple and well-defined job to do.

The man turned and ran after making one more declarative statement. "I TOLD you," he said. To no one. To the air. He said it as if she was still a sentient thing, a cloud of senses inside a body standing behind a counter. She wasn't. She wasn't any longer. And then he ran out the door into the snow coming down. He was apprehended three days later. He might be free by now. Who knows. It's been a decent amount of time.

Rick was drunk. Rick was high. We reminded him of these things. We said he couldn't have processed it quickly enough and he couldn't have known what would happen in those few short seconds after the man entered the Popeyes. Many lunatics wave guns around and it all ends relatively well. No bloodshed. It was a metaphysics problem, irresoluble as these things are, and we tried to get Rick to understand that. We were his friends. It could get exhausting. The scenario was revisited so many times between us all. We tried to listen.

It turned out okay because Rick later shot himself. He shot himself in the head. So, he explained, there would be a karmic canceling out. The girl in the Popeyes would somehow be given this absolute love offering, this admission that her life ended way too young for the universe to ever make sense again, for Rick ever to be at peace again. And Rick was all about peace; he was easygoing. His life had been a mellow, slow, drawn-out party. He had served a hitch in the army, but it had been uneventful. He had two divorces under his belt, but he remained friends with both exes. He could have probably gone the distance and been one of the lucky ones, if only he had not been hungry for fried chicken on that February afternoon, at just that hour. Seeing that young girl taken out somehow took him out. He was guiltless. But something in his brain would not let him see that.

Rick had explained to everyone that he had inoperable brain cancer, so everyone decided to go on this death trip with Rick to varying degrees. I mean he had announced his suicide. He was going to go off into the woods he loved and end it there. Those are the woods where he always went on "hunting trips" that were thinly-disguised drug parties with some obligatory shooting of guns at phantom deer and phantom bears and whatever phantom else Rick and his mostly lowlife but reliable friends hallucinated. They would tell you they were "ghetto rednecks." They did fine in the city but they had a country side that came from somewhere. Rick had indeed grown up in the country but had adjusted very well to living in a shit part of town. He was non-judgmental. Sweet with the vulnerable ones. Tough with the ones who would slit your throat if you ever showed a moment of weakness. Where he lived you had to fight sometimes. Rick had fought. He might not have been the brightest guy, but he could find decent work most of the time. In between, he did riskier, sometimes stupid things. But even then he played fair with people and harmed no one. Everyone except the assholes liked Rick.

Rick went alone on his final trip. He had to make it clear where he would be so his body could be recovered and there was no problem. A friend even lent him his cabin for this. He didn't want it to be a rental, some stranger's place. That wouldn't be fair. The friend would call 911 at the appropriate time and act clueless, explain his worries about his "severely depressed friend." And then things would be taken care of by strangers who had no tender feelings for Rick. It all made sense.

Rick repeatedly talked about how his brain cancer was somehow the karmic result of the incident in the Popeyes all those years ago. It wasn't some dead girl seeking vengeance. He wasn't superstitious like that. The constant nightmares weren't like that. It was just the universal balance. It was just something he could not process away. We told him he was wrong. But he wanted to keep this belief. If it somehow gave him a sense of peace, who were we to argue with the insanity of the idea?

Except Rick's cancer wasn't a karmic balancing out. It wasn't even cancer.

We learned from Rick's brother six months after his death by self-inflicted gunshot in the woods that Rick never had inoperable brain cancer. He didn't have brain cancer or any form of cancer at all. It was true he had been spending excessive amounts of time in the hospital, but it was for the treatment of a variety of chronic ailments, none of them fatal, and severe psychiatric problems, including PTSD. None of us were following the cancer narrative that closely since Rick wouldn't allow us to "dwell on it." He had never been a liar, so everyone just believed it all.

And Rick had exhibited the sort of symptoms you expected of someone with a brain tumor. He had serious memory lapses. He was often greatly confused. He needed shepherding. Later, we learned this was probably his severe mental illness and declining state of mind, coupled with the serious battery of psychotherapeutic meds Rick was taking (and probably abusing).

His friends felt horribly hoodwinked for having taking this death trip with Rick. There had been farewell parties, sexy "going away" parties. Girls had offered their favors, some from tender hearts and some (we suspected) for more lurid reasons. Does it turn some girls on to do a guy they know will soon be six feet under? Do they feel the way those hands linger on them and how those hands seem to know those breasts are among the last breasts on earth they will ever caress?  Did Rick's tongue lap the honey with special, mortal ardor? He gave us all strange thoughts. He never made it out of his forties and that makes you think. You expect to make it out of the forties, at least. Everyone does.

You look back at a guy like that. You look back at a guy with bad luck like that.

The Popeyes is still there in the worst part of town. I'm guessing no one who works in that shithole knows a girl was dropped behind that counter. This is a whole other generation. Sometimes they'll vacate a place like that. They always do if it's a massacre. Or the curse of the memory of the deed will do the place in. But this one's still going. It's been remodeled a few times. It serves the needs of one of the poorer neighborhoods. The projects is right across the street. I'm guessing there was some discussion, but hunger and need won out. There's no grocery stores for miles. You can walk there if you don't have a car.

Actually, a man was driven right over and dragged by a car piloted by a junior congressman. less than a block from the front door of that Popeyes. This was in the middle of the night, a few years after that girl or woman was murdered. I could say her name but I won't. I don't know why I don't want to say.

There were no witnesses to that bloody dragging but the victim and the drunk congressman behind the wheel. A video camera in a downtown parking garage in the Capitol complex caught him examining and cleaning up his rental car. When he was arrested, he said he thought he had "hit a sign." The young man had been dragged twenty or thirty feet. He knew it was no sign.

I've never even been inside the Popeyes. I lost a taste for meat years ago and even when I did eat that nasty shit (I'm thinking now of hairs like pubic hairs on the skin of fried chicken) that greasy shit gave me the trots. I know people who swear by it. I"m sure people fall in love in there. They do that sort of thing everywhere. If I ever went in that place, I think I'd just leave my body. But you know they don't put a tombstone in the middle of a fried chicken shack. No, wait. Two tombstones.


Lucia Hwang

Issues with Seeing

Oftentimes, when someone disappears from our life, it is because they have become too big or too small. 

Madrigal

I inherited a dark wood where I seldom go. But a day will come when the dead and the living change places. The wood will be set in motion. We are not without hope. The most serious crimes will remain unsolved in spite of the efforts of many policemen. In the same way there is somewhere in our lives a great unsolved love. I inherited a dark wood, but today I'm walking in the other wood, the light one. All the living creatures that sing, wiggle, wag and crawl. It's spring and the air is very strong. I have graduated from the university of oblivion and am as empty-handed as the shirt on the clothesline.




--Tomas Tranströmer

The Great Enigma
(translated by Robin Fulton)

Search ResultTomas Tranströmer 

Short Story

There was an oddly shaped piece of pink paper in the middle of the street. A man on his way to work walked over to examine it. He looked down from a "respectable distance," couldn't decide, and then proceeded on to the office. A young girl interrupted her skipping on her way to school to stand on the curb and scrutinize it from a safe distance. Two different cats going opposite directions sniffed at it when the sun was in two different places in the sky, but only its aura, really. Nobody could be quite sure. A squirrel hopping across the street like a cursor also stopped briefly and had a metaphysical encounter with the crumpled form. Then night came and it was left to be itself, blissful or cursed. It was pink. It was a pink slip.

Do You Wake Up

Do you wake up every morning, look in the mirror and think, "I will throw that woman (or man) over?" It is a little bit like a minotaur. There is a labyrinth, honeycombed guts of mirrors. There is hiding. 

Saturday, April 16, 2016

Elegy

I lie to my ideal self.
I tell him I will be like him tomorrow.
Transparently, these are dilatory tactics,
to keep him at bay, silent.

Why should he have my life
so like a tattered rope,
when he lives in an ideal world
of perfect spheres, unbuffeted?

After all, he can only come to exist
through shaming me into opening the door
and letting him steal my one poor life.
Let the parasite perish on the other side of the soap bubble

he rode in on.


Take Him

He said Take Him he is not bright, you know
I said he doesn't have to be bright
He only has to be like me and he is
And the thing you call bright is not
Dog paws over nose of the divine
To merely describe is a puling thing
So I took him but not for me
I took him to put him on the wind riding it
And that's where he is to this day
Bothered not by you nor me nor other grasping things
Puling things like animals who shed their natures
Who are forever homeless and anyways